What would it feel like to lose a child?

I hope I never have to find out. A dear friend and my favorite P.A. (my doctor), Patty Jones, lost her oldest daughter today of a brain tumor. She has had it for many years, and they have done all that they could to fight it. Patty has another daughter with a brain tumor, she has served a mission. Patty has battled breast cancer for the past few years. I've seen her with and without hair. I've seen her hair dark brown and now short and gray. She knows my deepest, darkest secrets and always greets me with a smile and much hope for the tomorrows. I love Patty. My heartaches for their loss of their wonderful daughter Carrie.